♥ 过了很久很久，我还是说着一样的人话·鱼语。♥

蓝色柠檬鱼

心情混乱的一天
今夜，有点失败，有点疲惫，有点自责
我做错了吗？
我只是坚持我自己想要的，发泄心里的不满
我做错了什么？

疲惫
却不想睡觉
刚才有发生什么事吗？
看你呼呼大睡的
看来没什么事发生
我却那么在意

我想变了
却变不了
发生什么事

raymand

原帖由 蓝色柠檬鱼 于 19-8-2005 12:31 AM 发表
阿门阿门
你进来哦？还真奇迹呢。。
我的字，无论是真迹还是网上，一直都是那么小
要看就要习惯啦~不好意思哦

你叫到好像在拜神酱.........
晕～
很奇迹咩？快拿茶水来招待我
看到还好啦，只是太久电脑才不舒服罢了

偶是来占领基地的，hehe

蓝色柠檬鱼

这里停歇了，是否生活就此停下来
或许，所以最近的脚步变得很慢，没有活力
那份动力又不见了，让我没有心情回来这里写

这段时期或许是个转变
开始对我爱了很多年的薄荷糖有了另一个想法
原来它是辣的
开始发现自己想要的东西，真的会很努力的去争取
为了我想要的，花多少精神也无所谓
开始发现对你的依赖太多太多
只到一个人睡觉也会觉得害怕
开始觉得没了你的声音我变得不耐烦
这几天没有电话声音的日子很难过，尤其是听不到你
开始觉得自己越来越堕落，不吃不喝不是问题
连夜没进食，我依然可以走路去上课
开始觉得其实我身边的朋友还不错
饿坏晕倒在学校，还以为没有人会送我看医生，谁知到现在朋友还是会问有吃早餐吗?
开始对自己没有信心，连平常最有把握的东西也不过如此
其实自己可以做到的无需担心太多，尽力就好
开始觉得生活可以用另一个方式来进行
如果亲历亲为的，多好，自己下厨，自己洗衣，不要靠人家

过了那个16岁，来到17岁了
一年的转变有多大？只是数字还是意思？
或者，这只是程式。

生活不曾停息，沿转的事一直不停发生。

蓝色柠檬鱼

几个星期没回来这里吗？
好像是，其实一直存在而不想去寻回
这里从来没有好事，只有坏事
找回，似乎是一个负担
却深怕它不见
这叫做习惯吗？

说实，爱情里最怕的就是习惯
习惯了一个人的味道
习惯了两个人一起睡觉
习惯了看电影不需要带寒衣
习惯了一杯可乐两个人喝
习惯了不去想晚餐吃什么
习惯了出门有人帮你拿东西
很多很多的习惯不停上演
直到分离的时候
走回很多景点，回忆重演
到时一定会觉得单人床太大了一点
戏院原来那么冷，可乐一杯太大杯
晚餐太多选择，逛街一个人拿东西好多
即使不爱的时候，却因为习惯而想起一个人
那时候，已经分不出是爱还是习惯
丢弃了，却因为习惯而勉强挽回
是否有会发生在我们的以后

或许两个人在一起，是互补对方的需求
为了完成对方的要求，满足对方
需要一个人在身边，需要一个人的陪伴
而两个人有同样的需求而在一起吗？
或许吧
如果是这样子的话，请你有时候给我机会去满足你

又要下雨了
今晚的晚餐是否又是空白
看来我好需要你

蓝色柠檬鱼

其实我在考试不是吗？
笨蛋鱼，告诉自己你在考试吧
只是，最担心的过了
停歇的心情又上演

期待着礼拜五
又在见到你的时候
又在和你去玩的时候
虽然我们这次闹了很多意见
但是，一起期待好吗？
我们要的只是快乐
不需要去想那么多

这将是我们第二次的旅游回忆
期待礼拜五
考试完毕的日子
与你见面的日子
一起游玩的日子

蓝色柠檬鱼

即将就要离去到小岛上受训
那3个月会是怎样的日子？
或许当时天真的以为很好玩所以才申请过去
但是每次回来又离去的心情
我必须适应了
才回家不到3天
我又要程搭飞机到那边去
直到三个月后才能回家
之间的节日也是一个人过
自从去读书之后在家的日子少只又少
看来我必须学会怎么写离别这两个字
或许来的伤痛却必须要习惯

真的很谢谢妈妈
那么疼爱我
我的电话坏了，我怎么都没想过你会买那么贵的给我
感觉自己有点败家，也太被你宠坏了
谢谢爸爸
那么疼爱我
千里迢迢送上的关心还有他的贴心，让我觉得很窝心
还有我的姐姐
我们好像见面不到30分钟
但是其实我都很想你啦~
谢谢我的他
那么疼爱我
专门去帮我搬东西，收拾房间，还有完成我的梦
谢谢你们

再次离去，你们都是千交待万交待要小心
妈妈说要小心蚊子，不要被叮
爸爸说要多吃东西，不要再血糖低晕倒
他说要万事小心，不要看错号码上错飞机

其实我只是去一个很邻近的小岛
只是我永远是你们放不下心的小女孩
但愿我学会成长
让你们放下心中的焦虑
但，这是不可能的吧
所以，谢谢你们的关心

蓝色柠檬鱼

离别之中
最不舍得的事物，其中一样是上网

我又要走了
离开网络世界
因为或许在那边我不能很常上网
无法想象会是怎样的日子

我又要走了
谁又会觉得不舍得
反正从来没有人发觉我的存在
因为我永远都不是人群中突出的那点
默默埋葬，在影子里

只有我自己会不舍得自己
那个网络世界里的我

如果认识我的人，我会献上我的祝福
如果不认识我的人，我则默默为你们祈祷
愿大家生活愉快

一个离别不会造成太大的改变
只有自己才能感受离别的差落

蓝色柠檬鱼

Leaving On A Jet Plane
Chantal Kreviazuk
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn'
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

leaving on a jet plane

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go I think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say


走咯
但愿三个月不见后，这个帖子还在

p/s:raymand,我换电话后不见掉你和妹子的电话了，记得sms我给我哦
呃，之前有我电话的人也可以sms我，因为我的phonebook被洗了
谢谢

raymand

不好意思，我的电话也不见了
原本还想等你短消息我你的电话呢...
哎～

raymand

对了，差点忘记。
你不是也有胃病的吗？
做么还整天不吃晚餐的？

小心身体越来越糟

成美

姐，知道你去LANGKAWI 料~
3个月很辛苦的说~要加油噢~
妹子等你的。。。。。
不过。。。。。。





















你还欠偶礼物！

蓝色柠檬鱼

挖了好久好久
搜寻也搜寻不到
原来是太久没有回帖子了
突然很想写帖子
纯粹无聊吗
已经有两个礼拜连续5-6点才睡觉了
戏看完了也不知道要做什么好
在床上滚来滚去
眼睛却睁得大大

去了清明回来
说实我超级久没有去清明了
这次去是因为，外公去世的时候我没回去
说得很突然，外公就去世了
死因不明，而且很突然很突然
我知道一个礼拜后才知道
妈妈害怕我在考试的说，怕我担心
但是接到这个消息的时候，错愕比较多
我也不知所措，因为妈妈告诉我的那天才是我第一天的大考
就这样，外公外婆都去世了
他们两个人埋在一起
今天去看了
大家都把事情看得很开，没有一丝丝的伤感
或许大家都把伤感留在心中，或者大家都已经接受了现实
毕竟离开的事，谁也不能阻止

很好笑的，清明被商业化了
有人到坟墓来卖早餐
有人放鞭炮像过年那样
有人竟然懒得叫人家来打扫 >_<
那些供品也很多变化，“手表”也是名牌的说
妈说现在大家都把清明当作节日，另外一个团圆的节日
而且清明也是死人的新年。。炸到

回家也快两个礼拜了
这个拜六又要回去了
又是离开，又要去实习了
我的妈丫，或许这次可以遇到朋友了
因为在kl实习。。

有点不想回去的说
我的炒东炎米粉，我的炒果条，我的椰浆饭，我的果条汤，我的咖哩面，我的豆花，我的福建面，我的laksa，我的云吞面。。。
这一切一切都还没有吃 >_<
但幸亏，回来这里悠闲的日子很享受
得空就看戏，再无聊就去逛街
感觉有点败家~

啊~生命就不过如此嘛~
c'est la vie

蓝色柠檬鱼

我的妈丫~如何忍受上班族的生活啊？
挤在蚂蚁窝的火车里，各种味道参在一起
脚动弹不得而麻痹
呼吸难过而快窒息
回到家都要1个小时了>_<

工作已经站了8个小时
受不了立刻冲去买面膜敷~ **正在敷着 **
第一天罢了啊~
我们不是快闷死就是无聊死
没有工作，又要东挤西挤
好奇那些上班族怎么每天那样子挤啊？

上班族有那么好吗？我还是比较喜欢做学生
突然真的很想念学校的日子~^^

p/s: 今天遇到服务超级烂的watson员工，不甘愿就不要出来服务人家。幸亏她给了我很多赠品~呵呵。。很少可以在watson拿到赠品。。突然又很感谢她，平衡了我超级累的心情

做一天放一天
哈哈，假期快乐

我就是苦命。





2 months to go ^^

蓝色柠檬鱼

·If you leave me now · by Chicago

If you leave me now, you’ll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don’t go
If you leave me now, you’ll take away the very heart of me
No baby please don’t go

A love like ours is love that’s hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We’ve come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we’ll both regret
Things we said today

A love like ours is love that’s hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We’ve come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we’ll both regret
Things we said today

If you leave me now, you’ll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don’t go
Oh girl, just got to have you by my side

No baby, please don’t go

Oh mama, I just got to have your lovin, yeah

We’ve come too far to leave it all behind

这首歌，真的很好听。
好喜欢好喜欢。

受伤的人会忘记
伤害的人不会忘记
记得的人会伤心
忘记的人不会伤心
留下的人会心痛
离开的人不会心痛

爱的人会幸福，去爱的人也会幸福
找爱的人有点辛苦，但还是会幸福

多久以后，一定会忘记的。
一旦记起来，记忆永远都不会变。

应该是从新开始的时候了。
加油吧

[ 本帖最后由 蓝色柠檬鱼 于 12-4-2006 02:23 AM 编辑 ]

蓝色柠檬鱼

·Total Eclipse of The Heart · by Bonnie Tyler

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you’re never coming round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I’m lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I’ve got to get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you’ll only hold me tight
We’ll be holding on forever
And we’ll only be making it right
Cause we’ll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark
We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I’m only falling apart
There’s nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there’s only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know you’ll never be the boy you always wanted to be
Turnaround, but every now and then I know you’ll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know there’s no one in the universe as magical and wondrous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know there’s nothing any better and there’s nothing I just wouldn’t do
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you’ll only hold me tight
Well be holding on forever
And we’ll only be making it right
Cause we’ll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark
We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I’m only falling apart
Nothing I can do

A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there’s only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

这首歌的女主唱，声音很迷人
就这样，我自然的再听多几次了
反复也不觉得沉闷

今晚想要拥抱
如果那晚我们相拥，或许一切就不一样
虽然我有冲动，但是女生还是不要主动好

原帖由 蓝色柠檬鱼 于 12-4-2006 02:22 AM 发表


这首歌的女主唱，声音很迷人
就这样，我自然的再听多几次了
反复也不觉得沉闷

今晚想要拥抱
如果那晚我们相拥，或许一切就不一样
虽然我有冲动，但是女生还是不要主动好

那么就给我多一次主动的机会
这次不想那么容易让你离开。。。

蓝色柠檬鱼

· Bizarre Love Triangle · by Frente!

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind
There’s no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goes
And it’s what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don’t know what to say
Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I’m not sure what this could mean
I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then we’d never see just what we’re meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

还是想听歌
想找这个歌手的专辑很久了
可是找不到，因为超过10年了
这首歌，很淡，却有种味道在
奇怪的三角恋，不是每个人都想要的

· Bohemian Rhapsody · by Queen

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I’m just a poor boy,i need no sympathy-
Because I’m easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn’t really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he’s dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I’ve gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn’t mean to make you cry-
If I’m not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body’s aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I’ve got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don’t want to die,
I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,galileo,
Galileo galileo
Galileo figaro-magnifico-
But I’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
He’s just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-can’t do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....

比起这团体其他的摇滚乐，我更爱这首
主唱有很迷人而磁性的声音，我很喜欢

祈祷，得到和平

·Out of Reach · by Gabrielle

Knew the signs
Wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you,
And now I feel like the fool.

So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had you heart,
Out of reach, couldn’t see,
We were never meant to be.

Catch myself from despair,
I could drown if I stay here,
Keeping busy every day,
I know I will be okay.

But I was ?
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn’t see,
We were never meant to be.

So much hurt, so much pain,
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside,
And I hope that in time, you’ll be out of my mind.
I’ll be over you.

But now i’m? .
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you.

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn’t see,
We were never meant to be.

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart,
In my reach, I can see,
There’s a life out there for me.

好像是什么电影的歌，可是想不起
越来越觉得，现在的歌都不能听，即使能听也不耐听
还是旧歌比较耐听。

即使得不到的爱，还是有其他的爱在等我。





音乐不死 music never dies.

[ 本帖最后由 蓝色柠檬鱼 于 12-4-2006 03:28 AM 编辑 ]

蓝色柠檬鱼

·Seperate Lives · by Phil Collins
You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you’re alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can’t go on just holding on to time
Now that we’re living separate lives

Well I held on to let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we’re living (living)
Separate lives

Ooh, it’s so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall (build that wall)
Yes, you build that wall (build that wall)
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might (I might) find myself looking in your eyes
But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives
Yes for now, we’ll go on living separate lives
Separate lives

分割两道，情侣们常面对的事情
但是，谁能避免
上天要你错过，你能逃避吗？
除非你们都死了，到时地狱见

既然分开，勇敢面对
再见依然是朋友

·Too Much Love will Kill You · by Queen
I’m just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I’m far away from home
And I’ve been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I’ve been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you can’t make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You’re headed for disaster
’cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I’m just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there’s no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can’t you see that it’s impossible to choose
No there’s no making sense of it
Every way I go I’m bound to lose

Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It’ll drain the power that’s in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You’re the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Too much love will kill you
It’ll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won’t understand why
You’d give your life, you’d sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end.

一个人只有一个选择
太多爱，太多负担
所以只能选择最爱
economic里叫opporcunity cost
爱情里叫残忍

太多的爱，只会害了自己

蓝色柠檬鱼

· As Time goes by · by Dooley Wilson *Soundtrack from Casablanca 1942*
This day and age we're living in
Gives cause for apprehension
With speed and new invention
And things like fourth dimension.
Yet we get a trifle weary
With Mr. Einstein's theory.
So we must get down to earth at times
Relax relieve the tension

And no matter what the progress
Or what may yet be proved
The simple facts of life are such
They cannot be removed.

You must remember this
A kiss is just a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by.

And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you."
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by.

Moonlight and love songs
Never out of date.
Hearts full of passion
Jealousy and hate.
Woman needs man
And man must have his mate
That no one can deny.

It's still the same old story
A fight for love and glory
A case of do or die.
The world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

Oh yes, the world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by

不知道应该不应该写这篇
时间就这样过了
但我却不希望时间的流逝而留不下任何痕迹
走了，就走了。一切一切都走了
原本留下的一切，狠心的不见了
无意有意，最终无缘的不能留在我身边。
最后也走出了他的心，确确实实的走出了
恭喜彼此，终于解脱了
却因为奇妙的感觉，想留些痕迹在心里
留什么，回忆吗？
不见了，被删除了。
不知有没有办法找得回
莫名其妙想到这些不见的过去，想哭

最终狠狠走出他的心
留下的空间也只要由别人顶替了
说定还是老友。
下一个女朋友记得要差过我，那样我比较安慰一点
这只是我小小的要求
好胜的我依然想当第一名

"The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along."

-Jelaludin Rumi-
不知道什么文字，从姐姐的blog转来
喜欢。

- Pictures of the day : Love -

执意的手，牵了就不放开吗？


纯纯的爱，没有烦恼


执子之手，与子偕老


黄昏之吻，一吻定深情


Good Night & Good Luck.

蓝色柠檬鱼

·Ain't No Mountain High Enough · by Diana Ross

If you need me, call me. no matter where you are, no matter how far. just call my name. I’ll be there in a hurry. on that you can depend and never worry.
(you see, my love is alive it’s like a seed that only needs the thought of you to grow. so if you feel the need for company, please, my darling, let it be me. I may not be able to express the de
F the love I feel for you, but a writer put it very nicely when he was away from the one he loved. he said down and wrote these words

No wind, (no wind) no rain, (no rain)
Nor winter’s cold
Can stop me, babe (oh, babe) baby (baby)
If you’re my goal

No wind, no rain,
Can stop me, babe
If you wanna go

I know, I know you must follow the sun
Wherever it leads
But remember
If you should fall short of your desires
Remember life holds for you one guarantee
You’ll always have me

And if you should miss my love
One of these old days
If you should ever miss the arms
That used to hold you so close, or the lips
That used to touch you so tenderly
Just remember what I told you
The day I set you free

Ain’t no mountain high enough
Ain’t no valley low enough (say it again)
Ain’t no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Ain’t no mountain high enough
Ain’t no valley low enough (say it again)
Ain’t no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Ain’t no mountain high enough
Nothing can keep me
To keep me from you

Ain’t no mountain high enough
Ain’t no valley low enough (one more time)
Ain’t no river wild enough (say it again)
To keep me from you

Ain’t no mountain high enough
Nothing can keep me
To keep me from you

照这首歌的时候
才发现。。
我
忘
记
敷
面
膜
。
。
。
。
。
。

啊
！

该回去私人时间
看戏·休息去
面膜明天补
这里写着才记得